July 2006

A new month...So many things have happened...shifted out of the old place, had a huge quarrel with my buddy, mum went to hospital, jace gave birth, rome had an accident, seah got attrided and is going back, went to atlanta, geogia with Aleah, Hong Ye and Kes...didn't go too well, went to 6 flags amusement park, the largest aquarium in the world, geogia aquarium and world of coke, had very bad service at a chinese restaurnat, had some korean food...went to drink, no one was up to it, so drank myself tired...wanted to swim, pool was closed, HY's car broke down, crappy machine, argh...June was really bad, just really really bad all in all...i hope this month's a better month...

Everyone is self centered, self absorbed and selfish. It really is a dog eat dog world even for people who claim to be your 'brothers'...no more...i have been so used to calling all my buddies 'bro'...from today onwards, that name has to be earned...problems and arguments are created from just a couple of muddleheads who are to selfish and lazy to do things on their own. They expect to be treated in a certain way because they feel they deserve it...I HATE JC KIDS! all JC kids behave that way, they act as if they are a cut above the rest, they make you feel small and criticise your every move, they belittle you and insult you and where do they put the blame? on everyone else but their lack of braincells...I do not understand how these JC kids are trained or brought up but it seems to be a phenomenon...they are all unrealistic, unfilial, unworthy of friendship and fucking backstabbers...my whole life, i have had only bad encounters with JC kids, they are all about themselves...dissappointments after dissappointments...they put themselves so high on the pedestal that when they fall it becomes the fault of the world...wake up all you fucking kids...grow the fuck up, shut the fuck up and sit the fuck down...kids...erghh....

Let me site you an example, My friend Aleah was getting abit pissed that one of the JC kids was always not following directions and having to go round and round and round because he simply could not "keep in the left lane"...so she emphasized her point...he got pissed and started talking to his buddy and chinese saying stuff about her without her knowing...then the very next day when we went for dinner, he pretended that all was alright but every now and then poked fun at her in Chinese...JC KID!! Then there another JC kid who because of his fucked up attitude made me quarrel with my buddy...he was too damn fucking lazy for a week - emphasised A WHOLE DAMN WEEK - to go down to get stuff "HE WANTED" and when it was time for us to move out...all his stuff was still there...i said throw it all away, my buddy asked my to "go out of my way, to get it for him" WTF?!?! who do they think i am...and i had to rush because that was the day we left for atlanta...and no apologies, no gratitude at all...bastard....then...after the JC KID's car broke down he started to blame me for it?? WTF?? Saying it was because i used his cigarette lighter?!?! WTF lah! Never do a 15 point check prior to going, car breaks down because his battery is fucked up, now becomes my fault...and he calls himself a christian...those fucking guys from the church in Singapore that cons money out of it's people and uses God as an excuse...hypocrits...City Harvest bastards...

As you can see i have been really pissed with fucked up behaviour surrounding me...oh and i just rememebred, one of the JC kid, passed gouge to my american buddy just the evening prior to our test...and he didn't even tell me about it...didn't pass it to me, until my american buddy said he would call my class all over to go through the paper together that he started to worry and called all of us up saying he had passed it to my buddy for all of us...what a lamer...lame ass JC kid...but it is obvious to all what a fucker he is...and excuse me...but he's very typical of an indian...kena backstabbed by an indian before, thought he was different...same shit....not being racist or anything but indians who are well to do in life are all the same, it's those who wnet through shit that are alright...

I'm just so pissed with everything right now...and i'm keeping it all inside...waiting to explode...i want to beat somebody up...itchy for a fight...no one takes responsibility these days, they are all out for themselves...where has commaradarie gone to, brotherhood of men...why do people think that because they have had better education or have the chance to be better educated that they are better than the rest? and i go on...ranting, ranting, ranting...

Mum's sick, rome's badly hurt, jace kid's has jaundice...i just want to be at home now...i'm so torn up...i hate this place but have to be here, and i'm losing touch with my home...been so damn busy...and i have realised something that also seems to be a phenomenon...

All my exes, do fucking well in life after the break up! And i'm jinx to anyone who wants to get close to me...so now i pull away...shut myself in...i do not want to jinx anyone...i will be quiet and by myself...i will not communicate if not needed and will not share or show emotions...as of today...i am steel...cold and hard...till i get home...till i get home

Jermz
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