Holy Week...a new start...

I've been made a fool and i know it now...she doesn't care...not a call, not a mail, no efforts to say hi or see how i am doing...i am nothing to her...silly me for believeing her lies...yesterday was the start of a whole new week for me...a whole new year...went to service the car, went to exercise, washed my car, washed my laundry, bought groceries...

This week i intended to see if we were meant to be...i threw out the idea and prayed...that we would meet no matter what happened and that would prove everything i needed to know...it didn't happen and i'm not the least bit saddened...i have moved on like so many i've come to meet over the last few months...

I always had a couple of days where i will just blank out and shut myself from the world everytime i know i'll be losing a friend or a girl who might have been the one...this time there wasn't a day...he let me meet her most uncanningly...and by holy week, we have grown a part of each other's daily affair and not having talked to her for a day seems incomplete...

Put us together and you get Jeron and Sharmaine...both from very different upbringings, very different views on life, very different likings and behaviours...but having been talking to her for hours on the phone everytime we get to talk, she has brought me back to days when i behave like a kid before Xmas day, anticipating the opening of the presents, on a daily basis...she is a really good friend and buddy...and if she is the one...the lord will decide and i will know...if not...he has indeed brought me a friend i know i want to keep forever...baby steps...

Maundy Thursday, Good Friday, Holy Saturday and Easter Sunday...help me not tread on dangerous lands but if i must, guide me and show me the way lord...

I hear her voice in her mind, i know her face by heart
Heaven and Earth are moving in my soul, i don't know where to start
Tell me, tell me the words to define the way i feel about someone so fine
How do you talk to an angel? how do you hold her close to where you are?
How do you talk to an angel? it's like trying to catch a falling star

At night i dream, and she is there
And i can feel her in the air
Tell me, tell me the words to define the way i feel about someone so fine
How do you talk to an angel? how do you hold her close to where you are?
How do you talk to an angel? it's like trying to catch a falling star

Another long week ahead...another truckload of shit pulling in at my doorstep, in the words of the wise...

Take your time...Do not rush, what's your hurry?

I hope she feels the same way...

Jermz