The Vows We Take...
Every year when 1st of January comes knocking on my door...i take a couple of steps back and look back on the year i've had...i make a list of the things i want to change about me, how i've behaved, what i want to achieve...manyatimes i find myself going back on the same old list of things year in and year out...have i not taken that step forward?
Do i not take my resolutions seriously enough? Am i not a man of my word? I guess i really got to pen down the list in BLACK AND WHITE and stick by it, ticking it off everytime i accomplish one till it becomes instilled in me...it becomes second nature...i'll get back to that in just a second...a thought has hit me...
Many people take the vow of marriage simply without thinking about it thoroughly, i for one have fallen into that trap before...
here comes the best part of it all...it's hard to explain...so let me give you a scenerio.."when you love someone, you should be unselfish enough to give them what they want..." Who the hell knows what the other wants? I have told another before that i will take 2 steps back so she can move on and be happy...and now i know...she wasn't...but her life turned out much better...and i know for a fact...than it would have been if i had stayed... i thought all along i was being unselfish and it was "all for the better" and it is for the better...but she tells me i was being selfish...not thinking for her...how can being so unselfish be so selfish?...now wanting her back seems selfish...
maybe, i thought i had let go...maybe i really haven't..i have been holding on to a dream that will never come true...this time i will hurt her even more...and i would be tearing up my heart into pieces but i know...and i know she knows it too...we can never be...not in this lifetime, we're not meant to be...i never wanted to let go this time...but she has taken the few steps back and i have seen it clearly...i will now move on...both in life and in my original intended subject...
Love and Cherish, keep, honour and protect...
Forsake all others to be loyal...
To have and to hold in good times and in bad, in sickness and in health, till DEATH do you part...
Why is it that these days people take these words so lightly...make a vow before God only to do things to test the bond, to test the love, to make it difficult for the other to carry out his/her duties as a husband/wife? Do they not know that when the words : "What God has put together, let NO man put a sunder!" are being said, it is also meant for them...people always think of it as another 'third' party who will come between them but few really see that most of the time it is the other person in the relationship who is "putting all the sunders"
as for my resolutions...
1) QUIT SMOKING
2) BE MORE ORGANISED - more often morning and night prayers...
3) DRINK AND EAT LESS
4) GO TO THE GYM AND SWIM MORE
5) LEARN SOMETHING NEW - saxaphone?
6) TALK LESS, LISTEN MORE
7) SAVE MORE MONEY, SPEND LESS
and when i get home
8)SPEND MORE TIME WITH MY FAMILY
9) DO UP THE ROOM
10) MAKE MASS A WEEKLY "FAMILY" THING - initiate...
11) AND GO OUT FOR A GOOD WEEKLY FAMILY DINNER
12) GET A DOG, RIDE MY BIKES(BOTH), PLAY TENNIS, EXERCISE
now, i will strive to make all my plans workout, fall in love, go to the beach, be spontaneous, and smile....
"if you can touch the horizon, you're near your journey's end..."
Do i not take my resolutions seriously enough? Am i not a man of my word? I guess i really got to pen down the list in BLACK AND WHITE and stick by it, ticking it off everytime i accomplish one till it becomes instilled in me...it becomes second nature...i'll get back to that in just a second...a thought has hit me...
Many people take the vow of marriage simply without thinking about it thoroughly, i for one have fallen into that trap before...
here comes the best part of it all...it's hard to explain...so let me give you a scenerio.."when you love someone, you should be unselfish enough to give them what they want..." Who the hell knows what the other wants? I have told another before that i will take 2 steps back so she can move on and be happy...and now i know...she wasn't...but her life turned out much better...and i know for a fact...than it would have been if i had stayed... i thought all along i was being unselfish and it was "all for the better" and it is for the better...but she tells me i was being selfish...not thinking for her...how can being so unselfish be so selfish?...now wanting her back seems selfish...
maybe, i thought i had let go...maybe i really haven't..i have been holding on to a dream that will never come true...this time i will hurt her even more...and i would be tearing up my heart into pieces but i know...and i know she knows it too...we can never be...not in this lifetime, we're not meant to be...i never wanted to let go this time...but she has taken the few steps back and i have seen it clearly...i will now move on...both in life and in my original intended subject...
Love and Cherish, keep, honour and protect...
Forsake all others to be loyal...
To have and to hold in good times and in bad, in sickness and in health, till DEATH do you part...
Why is it that these days people take these words so lightly...make a vow before God only to do things to test the bond, to test the love, to make it difficult for the other to carry out his/her duties as a husband/wife? Do they not know that when the words : "What God has put together, let NO man put a sunder!" are being said, it is also meant for them...people always think of it as another 'third' party who will come between them but few really see that most of the time it is the other person in the relationship who is "putting all the sunders"
as for my resolutions...
1) QUIT SMOKING
2) BE MORE ORGANISED - more often morning and night prayers...
3) DRINK AND EAT LESS
4) GO TO THE GYM AND SWIM MORE
5) LEARN SOMETHING NEW - saxaphone?
6) TALK LESS, LISTEN MORE
7) SAVE MORE MONEY, SPEND LESS
and when i get home
8)SPEND MORE TIME WITH MY FAMILY
9) DO UP THE ROOM
10) MAKE MASS A WEEKLY "FAMILY" THING - initiate...
11) AND GO OUT FOR A GOOD WEEKLY FAMILY DINNER
12) GET A DOG, RIDE MY BIKES(BOTH), PLAY TENNIS, EXERCISE
now, i will strive to make all my plans workout, fall in love, go to the beach, be spontaneous, and smile....
"if you can touch the horizon, you're near your journey's end..."
posted by Jeron & Sharmaine at 2/12/2006 02:26:00 pm
1 Comments:
haha, actually...i was kinda bored last weekend and was thinking how nice it would be to have a dog then i could go to the beach with him and play frisbee or something...then i decided i want one when i go back...but hdb only can have like one dog...sianz
how about you? did you buy the dog?
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