...daor eht nwod sraey 02

When i sit, staring at the web browser, whatever it may be then, on my laptop, whichever brand i may have switched to, on a 'whatever' sized bed in my 'how many' bedroom place, in wherever in the world and read what i am to write, right at this moment, i will again be brought to this place and feel this way...

"Have i ever told you i love you?"
"No"
"Well, i do...I love you..."
"Still?"
"Always"

The best lines i've ever heard exchanged between two people from two opposite, different sides of the world...

People return not because they have forgotten... They come back because they do not want to forget... But, how does one make what has always seemed so wrong...right again? How can you open up a wound that has healed so perfectly...Why would anyone slash open a scar which they never knew they wanted in the first place? The answer which manyatimes seems very illogical and ridiculous is the most simple and pure thing man has and will ever know... LOVE...

---- There's always a stall warning before you crash and burn...
--------------- Learn from your mistakes, always live and learn...
---------Pitch trim is now in normal mode, not in alternate, not in off...
- Made of flesh is this torn up heart which for you will bleed soft...

------ I will love again, i will smile, play in the rain, sing and dance... I will be the man you've always wanted me to be...

...I will be me....

This has been a great week...2 tests of which i only missed a question...I lived life this week smiling...and sadly enough many people say this "happy, go lucky" mood of mine will not last...I beg to differ and now, more than ever, i am out on a mission...on a mission to be true...to be real...to be happy...to be contented...to be, more than anything in the world, me...

I am made up of the many events and happenings that i have been through, am going through and will go through...I have not kept many promises i've made, so from now onwards, as much as i want to, I will never make promises i cannot keep, so i do not make promises anymore...defying gravity is what i do...and grounding people...especially myself, is what i do best...for i will not lay in this bed of roses...and endulge in my successes like many may or will do...for what i am and what i will become lays in the hands of my God...he has done well and for that i will praise and glorify his name...not mine...i am his servant and he will do as he pleases...

He got feet down below his knees...He said one and one and one is 3....got to be good looking cos he's so hard to see...bring me the letter baby, do not leave out the words...the stories and cigarettes ruin the lives of lesser gals...when the same black line that was drawn on you...was drawn on me...well, now it's drawing me in...was it just the seasons? rolling to some new level...will you think of times that you've told me that you knew reasons, why we had to leave me lonely? she listens like spring and she talks like june...did you sail across the sun? did you fall from a shooting star? and did you miss me while looking for yourself out there?

Thursday lunches will be my gym time...went to the gym on thursady and realised how out of shape i'm in.... for too long now i have not thought straight, not focused enough, not systematically done things...now things seem clearer....i now know...

I watched the exorcism of emily rose and it brought me back to times when i was just me, simple, pure and true, i would give up everything at an instance if he calls me and he knows that....he's letting me choose, decide and live life...so i will...ideas may clash...believes may do to...but, he will prevail and overcome...for he who loves the God that created me, loves me...and i will love him...

My life is in his hands and i will not do what i please...only what he wants of me...

Now you know why...

today is going to be a great day...like was yesterday and like tomorrow will be...i miss home and people and the people i miss know it...even without me saying a word...for it is that connection that amazes me...forever in my prayers and forever in prayer...

21 JAN 06 SAT 1542hrs