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The two new guys have arrived...giving all here a new lease on life...Sean and Chiyu...Chiyu who is Wayne's buddy who Wayne told me to look out for...Chiyu really reminds me of bernard and i think i have met Sean somewhere before...anyway, went to the commissary to stock up on food then accompanied the guys to Rex's place cos HongYe's car had some problems...apparently smoking...went to Outback for din din with the guys and had myself a grilled shrimp combo...(feel so bad cos i was fasting the whole morning but when we got there was so hungry...buai tahan...ahaha...well, it was good...then found out from Kesmond that one of our coursemates, an american who got selected for E-2C Hawkeyes was found dead in his room...Tewinkle...a jolly, happy go lucky guy...really got a shock because it seemed like just a couple of weeks ago when i last saw him...life is so fragile...must live it to the max...no more hiding in my shell all day...when did i start retreating i didn't even realised...

Came home, chatted to her for awhile...exchanged some songs...got to know each other a little bit better...tried to make her trip...tripped all over myself...damn...these days she's getting pretty sharp...downloading even more movies and songs...and just can't seem to sleep again...it really seems like the pace is going to pick up 3 folds...need to refocus and concentrate...tomorrow, will be heading over to HongYe's to do some laundry and then go for some interval training...need and must get my gold for IPPT...and then must get more gas for the car and kick my butt to get some studying done...feeling abit slackish lately...

Was just surfing the net and chanced upon some of my poly mate's blogs...so not funny loh...they seem to be having a great time being free...and i'm still stuck in the military...which is draining my life slowly but surely...I miss home, miss my friends, miss my bike, miss my sofa...and i'm just imagining what it would be like if i were in fact in Singapore right now...hmm...i think i need some changes in my life...need to just get up and do what makes me happy...can't please the world forever and cannot always wait till later...must be a more NOW person...where did the passion go...when did the fire for life i had extinguish...i need change...i need to change...

will i leave behind a legacy, should i? could i? must i? Life is staring me in the face and i'm just walking away...i've had this feeling before...what's stopping me? why am i not what i used to be...free and carefree...Show me the next step and i'll take it...

Jeron - to see the world now...to experience life now...