I've had enough...

March has arrived...i somehow feel like there's something big that's gonna happen for me...or maybe it's 'to me'...i really don't know...Done with my conversion course to the Air Force and now i can really throw away all the army stuff...Just attended a one week course in Aviation Medicine and learnt so much about the human body...learnt so much about myself...and furthur emphasised the already known fact that smoking kills...

I've cut down...2-3 sticks a day now...getting all the sinus problems and all...

I know for a fact that i'm paranoid...no, not from the course...i digress...so like i'm learning about how the atmosphere ain't a very suitable place for humans who wanna fly and all...God made us this way...our senses fail us when we manoevere, our body fails us when we are above sea level...

okay, and it's weird that the cadets who were on course with me, who were all about 19-20yr old, all had a laptop and spoke in a lingua i didn't really understand... it really seemed like a really bad movie where all homosapien form had been possessed by this CD casing and were staring at it...following it's instructions...

I'll be leaving soon and somehow no matter how i try to get away from everything, everything seems to be holding me back...i feel so alone in this world and i'm longing to be a part of something, someone...The future awaits me...

The motion of love has always baffled me...This is what i know or want love to be... It's when 2 people don't have to think twice about being together, both will suffer and sacrifice for the other's benefit. The world will be a noise, chaotic and all and the lovers will be a single note playing in the midst of all the pandemonium...strong and sustained...in a world where every single person takes risks, the couple take whatever risks that presents itself, together...NOTHING ELSE MATTERS, compromise and understanding is a daily affair...listening is the most essential in a world where everyone wants to speak and be heard, it's about knowing that even if the lovers are lost, they go through life together seeking the unknown...knowing what the other needs and wants...it's about seeing how beautiful the other is, even on a really bad hair, face, mood day...it about knowing for sure that one will give up everything for the other not worried about what will happen...it's about enjoying the road trip and not the destination...about enjoying the company of each other and not the movie...it's about putting aside everything for the other...it's about having NOTHING ELSE MATTER...

I want to find that love...i want to find that person who knows me and is not worried by the surroundings about being with me...a person who doesn't need me to profess and proclaim my love for her to know that i do...someone who knows what will make the relationship work and does it...someone who is in love with me as much as i am with her and who knows that time and space will not stand between us...why wait till tomorrow when today's just begun...someone to whom....

...NOTHING ELSE MATTERS