6th April 2005
Okay,
So it's been pretty much comfirmed...i'm going to the states, pensacola on the 6th of April 2005...and still there'slike so much to do before i go...play as much mahjong as i can, CNY celebrations, Jerel's leaving on the 10th Feb 2005, my packing, the Visa thingie, my GFET, swimming, dinghy drill, etc...
Still even before i go, i already feel a sense of lost...For many years now, whenever i feel like quiting or just slacking...HM was always there for me to push me on...And though i'm still very sad for not having completed my airgrading...i know i cudn't haf done it if HM wasn't there for me...I still miss her much and dare i say, still love her dearly...though i know now it'll never work out...
There'll be so much i'll be leaving behind and though i'm very excited about going...i'm also torn apart...There's so much to worry about...Ah-ma's so old, mum will be lonely after we all leave, I hope janice grows up abit...my bike - wat am i going to do with it...saw an accident and just don't want jerrick to get into any trouble...Jerome...Army or police...all my stuff at home...wat to bring over...
I'm jus in a mess...tmr will be a better day...i'll be booking out and celebrating CNY for the last time in the next 2 years with my family...I'll have to plan my thoughts and actions according to priorities...a step at a time...seems like i've got a lot to do with so little time...
I'm sort of like a depression...can't seem to focus, socialise, get things done...Lord, i pray u'll help me through this difficult time and help my brothers go through life how u deem fit...be with them, my sisters and esp. my mum and grandma...help my mum relax and spend more time with ah-ma...help her through all difficult times...help my sisters with wat they're going through and help them see what's important in life...help my brothers once again with love, wit life and with their religion...help me lord...i lift their lives and mine into your hands...Take care of us lord...send ur angels to protect and guide us...help us be closer to you
Amen...
So it's been pretty much comfirmed...i'm going to the states, pensacola on the 6th of April 2005...and still there'slike so much to do before i go...play as much mahjong as i can, CNY celebrations, Jerel's leaving on the 10th Feb 2005, my packing, the Visa thingie, my GFET, swimming, dinghy drill, etc...
Still even before i go, i already feel a sense of lost...For many years now, whenever i feel like quiting or just slacking...HM was always there for me to push me on...And though i'm still very sad for not having completed my airgrading...i know i cudn't haf done it if HM wasn't there for me...I still miss her much and dare i say, still love her dearly...though i know now it'll never work out...
There'll be so much i'll be leaving behind and though i'm very excited about going...i'm also torn apart...There's so much to worry about...Ah-ma's so old, mum will be lonely after we all leave, I hope janice grows up abit...my bike - wat am i going to do with it...saw an accident and just don't want jerrick to get into any trouble...Jerome...Army or police...all my stuff at home...wat to bring over...
I'm jus in a mess...tmr will be a better day...i'll be booking out and celebrating CNY for the last time in the next 2 years with my family...I'll have to plan my thoughts and actions according to priorities...a step at a time...seems like i've got a lot to do with so little time...
I'm sort of like a depression...can't seem to focus, socialise, get things done...Lord, i pray u'll help me through this difficult time and help my brothers go through life how u deem fit...be with them, my sisters and esp. my mum and grandma...help my mum relax and spend more time with ah-ma...help her through all difficult times...help my sisters with wat they're going through and help them see what's important in life...help my brothers once again with love, wit life and with their religion...help me lord...i lift their lives and mine into your hands...Take care of us lord...send ur angels to protect and guide us...help us be closer to you
Amen...
posted by Jeron & Sharmaine at 2/07/2005 07:41:00 am
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