We are all human

So, i was wondering how life turned our this way...Why i had a girl's name...for both my Christian and Chinese name...Jermaine and Chye Leng...hmm...how did i get here...Today, sitting through the lesson wasn't that bad as i thought it wud be...didn't fall asleep...no 'Z' monsters to fight and just sitting there thinking about life while life just moved on...

Alot of how i've become and the way that i am is actually a make up of how i've been through life so far...Just a reminder to myself of the journey taken...

AT THE BEGINNING

At a very young age, i was so called adopted out because of my family's financial situation...I have 6 siblings and am very proud to be part of the 'jean gang'...All i can remember of my childhood was mostly at toa payoh where the family who had to put up with me stayed...and of cos the weekends when i return home to my siblings...swam in the 'pool' we had at home which was a blow up thing and playing with my brothers and sisters...a little bit older...my life revolved around church...serving as an altar boy with my elder brother and trying to be like him...as much as i could...he was and still is the genious of the family...playing soccer b4 and after mass and scouting...Yes, i was a scout and preety good at it too...At the age of 8, i was the 2I/C of my cohort for national day parade...was made a sixer and eventually a senior sixer...cud pitch my own tent, single-handedly, enjoy photography at the age of 11 and got a gash in my head at primary 6.

Then, things begin to change, started smoking in primary 5...played truant, fell for a primary school teacher who taught me music...picked u the guitar, cudn't put it down...went to Fajar Sec School for a year...had a big argument with the principal (Did pretty well...by the end of the year was transfered to the best class)...transfered to Assumption English School (my alma-mater)...joined a gang...started fighting in school...picked up drinking, gambling...the works. Fought with my dad, dared him to throw me into Boys' Town...which he did...stayed there for 2 years...this is where things changed...

Worked really hard for the big 'o's, got into Mass Communications course in Ngee Ann Poly...met a gal...and things changed again...short lived glory...

Had to repeat a module...spent 3and the half years there...got my diploma...with really crappy grades. Went out with a secondary school sweetheart. Dad left, irresponsible...Got enlisted...Wanted badly to get into OCS..."cheong' my way there, got commissioned...joined 3SIR for a while, then got a letter to go for airgrading to join the air force as a pilot...

Got all the way to the 14 sortie out of 15, got offered a position as a WSO(FTR)...took it up without hesitation and now I am here in OCS once again serving my service term for my conversion to the air force... then i broke up with my baby of 4 yrs...

Life, indeed has been a roller coaster ride...with times at the peak and many other times at the base...

But, it's at the base where life starts to take shape...Oh, did i mention i picked up MahJong...

THE FUTURE

For now, it seems that the possiblities are endless...There's so much i'm looking forward to and with so much regrets in my past, it seems the future ain't all that bad...Take whatever gets thrown in my face...Decided never to get married...never let myself fall in love...had enough...be it my family who made me decide this or on my own accord...enough is enough...So wat if i have an instructor who has a sister with the same name as me who is coincidentally the same age...Jermaine is a great name for great people...haha...self glory...

So wat if my 'regrets' list has piled up...ain't that life and aren't we all just human...